Pretending I still live in 1300 (Taken with Instagram at Derp City)
i haven’t gone to nearly as many shows lately as i have for the past few years and i guess i kinda forgot about how much music really means to me. the only bands i ever really see are the ones i don’t care that much about. most of my favorite bands aren’t even bands anymore. today on the way to/from work i listened to reach for the sun and war paint and ugh i just got one of those feelings where everything just lines up, ya know? the songs matched with life experiences and real feelings and i was brought back to two years ago when those feelings happened every fucking night and jesus christ it took so much for me to not break down in front of everyone sitting around me. i miss live music and my favorite bands and my best friends and traveling all over the place for those things and hardly sleeping but not being miserable because of it and photographing everything and not having any real worries about anything and i hate how much that’s all changed. don’t get me wrong, i really love the way my life is now and the people and things that have come into it to replace everything that’s long gone, but i just wish i could have it all now. you never really appreciate the small things until they’re gone.
Pick up a copy of the new issue of Alternative Press on sale tomorrow for the story of Panic! At The Disco’s unreleased album Cricket And Clover that the band recorded in 2007. It’s part of AP’s “The Unheard Music” feature which also includes stories on unreleased music from My Chemical Romance, All Time Low, Green Day, Dashboard Confessional and 22 other bands.
“All those computers of mine are long gone. I don’t even have any of the lyric books. I went digging through my stuff trying to find something, but it’s not here. If anybody’s got it, I’d love to hear it.” - Ryan Ross
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OH MY GOD isn’t that what they recorded when they were in that cabin or whatever?
my elementary school’s website allows the teachers to create individual pages for their classes. this is one of the teachers i had in eighth grade.
awhile ago i was lurking a kid i grew up with, and then i came across his mom’s facebook, where i found his little sisters’ facebooks as well. they’re currently going to the elementary school that we went to, and i came across the school’s website. right now, only 4 of the 13 teachers i had when i went there are still a part of the faculty. the school’s changed so much since i graduated 8th grade, and it’s weird to actually see it all. i remember when i was in 8th grade the school website didn’t even exist. part of me wants to go visit my old teachers one day, but part of me is afraid that they won’t even remember who i am. bah getting nostalgic for my life ten years in the past.
strawberryfarms asked: 2 4 !!!!!!
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
UGH i was so mad today because of my stupid landlord and one of my dumb coworkers, but i guess that doesn’t really count that much. i’m already over it. i guess just from my last post, this past winter especially in february. i was angry because someone important in my life went from caring about me and spending all of his time talking to me to just straight up pretending i didn’t exist. in retrospect, i understand why he did it, but i don’t think it was the best decision for him to make. why burn bridges?
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
i don’t think i would tell people. why would i want so many people to pretend to care about me just because i’m dying? i’d spend my last days doing things i love, trying new things, and spending a lot of time with my friends. i think i’d also tell a handful of people things i’ve left unsaid the past few years for whatever reasons. if i knew it was coming, i don’t think i’d be afraid. circle of life man, it’s gonna happen to everyone eventually anyway.
madeghosts asked: 1, 8, 13
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
looking into someone else’s eyes. i’m a decent listener, and simply paying attention to someone else when they’re telling me how they feel is a lot easier than having to try and keep eye contact when i’m talking to them.
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
it honestly depends on who it is. i don’t know what i’d do if a girl told me that. not that i’m not open to anything happening romantically with a girl, but nothing’s ever really been there and i don’t see it happening any time soon. i guess i’d just have to explain that. as far as guys go, i think it’d be easier for me to talk about that. also, depending on the guy, there’s a chance that those feelings could be reciprocated by me (though not necessarily as strong as theirs, i’d be willing to try anything under the pretense that we’re just trying stuff and i don’t want to ruin any friendships).
13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
oh god, i don’t even know. i’m not one to lie about my feelings, but i guess the last time it was like a big deal was in february. when we stopped talking i tried to hard to get closure and no matter what i did or said, he just didn’t want to talk and i spent forever just trying to work things out for myself. after months of ignoring me and just pretending i didn’t exist, i finally just told him everything i’d been feeling between october and february (though in a really angry tone). i think my anger is what finally got him to acknowledge me, and although it wasn’t what i wanted, things are much better.
